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Suicide, from someone that tried it

Suicide, from someone that tried it

The first time I considered suicide I was in 5th or 6th grade. My mother and I were screaming at each other at the top our lungs. She said she didn’t want me, and my dad didn’t want me either. She didn’t know what to do with such a horrific child. I grabbed a knife from the kitchen and told her I was going to kill myself. She told me to put it down, and we never spoke of the incident again….

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Fight, Flight, or Freeze

Fight, Flight, or Freeze

Happy holidays from sunny San Diego! The 9th symptom of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is dissociative feelings. As defined by the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI), dissociating can be described as “disconnecting from your thoughts or sense of identity or ‘out of body’ type of feelings.” Before I was diagnosed with BPD, I didn’t know that dissociation existed as part of the human experience, and it has been one of the most mystifying parts of my journey with BPD. We’re…

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