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Still Existing

Still Existing

The last note saved in my phone contains dosages of over the counter drugs. It was a note I started last Thursday, finished on Friday, and was supposed to serve as instructions for how to kill myself. When I picked up the drugs Friday morning, I remember noticing how expensive they were. I chuckled to myself, realizing that it doesn’t really matter how much money is left in my account if I’m dead. I hate myself for not just killing…

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TIP Skills

TIP Skills

Happy Sunday, y’all! Like last weekend, I took this weekend to do some self-care, mostly hanging out with the puppy and cleaning the apartment. Wednesday through Friday, and even parts of this weekend, I really struggled with my anxiety. There are different ways my anxiety manifests. Sometimes it’s like I can’t breathe or I get really light-headed. Other times, I feel like I’m losing control of my surroundings. In moments like these, my anxiety is more visible to others. I’ll…

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Dolla dolla bill y’all

Dolla dolla bill y’all

Happy St. Patrick’s Day, y’all! A couple times a month, Tyler and I sit down and catch up on finances. While necessary, this conversation is something that I absolutely hate doing. Finances make me incredibly anxious. I don’t have a specific reason why- I’m generally not spending outside of my means, and things are relatively stable. Yet, many of our financial conversations have ended with me laying in bed because I think the world is ending. The American Psychological Association…

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